So apparently people actually read my blog...who knew? Thanks to those who read! Feel free to comment :)
I haven't been able to post lately unfortunately due to the fact that school has now started with full force AND I'm working approximately 20 hours a week.
And honestly, I have wanted to write, but I've had so many thoughts jumbled up in my head I've had a bit of writers block! Where to begin it all?
I've recently been reminded of the negative effects of partying.
First of all, when people party, they think they are the COOLEST thing in the face of the planet. What they don't realize, is that when all they want to talk about is partying, that it's REALLY annoying to both guys and girls.
Girls. Guys really don't think it's all that attractive that you go out and party every weekend. In fact, most guys that I've talked to say that it's getting old. Really fast. So my advice? If you party, that's fine, but maybe keep it to yourself. Or text your BFF about it.
I would talk about guys and partying but guys don't really talk about how much they party so there really isn't anything to talk about :)
Moving right along.
I'm really tired of narcissistic people (really glad I have spell check!).
Everybody's different, everybody has their issues. But don't think that your issues are more important than mine. To you they might be, but at least show a tad bit of sympathy. And don't think you're better than me because your issues are SO much tougher to go through than mine and I don't deserve to even be talking to you because my status is CLEARLY lower than yours. People that are like this make me frustrated. It's one thing to have a good self esteem, but it's entirely another however, to think that you're better than everyone. That is so not good. Have a slice of humble pie please!
I think people that are narcissistic really need God to give them a good kick in the pants just to bring them back down to earth, or shrink their head sizes. Whatever works. I don't think there's a single person in the world who has the right to act like they're better than everyone. In my opinion, an attitude like that will get you nowhere. No one will want to work for you, be friends with you, and in both of those cases, do anything for you.
So my advice to narcissistic people? Pull your head out of your butt, find some sympathy, and enjoy a piece of humble pie. You're a great person, but so am I. And so is your neighbor. And that really annoying neighbor with the yappy dog? Yeah. Them too. As Proverbs 11:2 says, "When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom." Be proud of who you are, but also be humble in the fact that you aren't perfect and nobody is. Everybody has their issues, and if you can take a step back and at least acknowledge the other person, you might be better for it. You might actually learn something from somebody. Who knew?
And that's only part of it. Possibly more to come soon!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
You know what really grinds my gears???
Alright. First post that involves rambling. And ranting (classified as 'other fun things' I suppose...).
Today was a very frustrating day. One of those days when you wake up thinking everything is going to work out according to your plan and then NOTHING goes according to plan. In fact, it might as well have been opposite day. I'm not going to give you exact details of everything that happened today, as I don't feel it's necessary, and I would be bored just typing it. So I can't even imagine reading it.
I hate when you go into a store, and the employees treat you like you're retarded. That really makes me angry. What makes me even more angry is dealing with the same company about 3 times in 2 months, and 2 out of the 3 times being treated like a retard. BOY oh BOY does that piss me off. I usually don't complain to companies, I don't even honk my horn when somebody cuts me off in traffic. But being treated like I don't know anything multiple times makes me angry enough to say something. I'm in the process of writing a complaint letter to said company.
On to number 2 thing that made me upset today. I hate when people ask you to do things they aren't willing to do themselves. I have multiple cases of this in my life, so I won't bother to explain them all. I will explain the one I'm having issues with at this current moment though.
I feel like I'm constantly asked to just drop everything for other people. Whether it being to cover a shift at work, or hanging out with friends. The covering shifts one doesn't bother me. One day I'm going to be sick and I'm going to need a favor. So that's fine. But the hanging out with friends one quite frequently pisses me off. I feel like people get upset, or I'm letting certain people down when I can't just drop everything I'm doing and go to their house for a movie, or go out for coffee, or just meet them somewhere just so they can get out of the house. It's not like I never do that for people, but I just cannot do it all the time. I lead a very busy lifestyle, so it's not very often that I have room for 'spur of the moment' plans.
So instead, I'll make plans with people. Which to me, makes more sense. You can have a mental note, a reminder on your cell phone, whatever it may be, so that you can't make other plans, or at least make plans around our plans (does that make sense?). This way, you've made time for someone without any sort of distractions, and at least I can provide my full attention.
But for some reason, plans are difficult for some people.
If you have to bail on me with a reasonable explanation, or an explanation at least, that's fine. I understand. Things happen all the time. But DON'T just not bother to show up, or not bother to confirm plans or whatever. I absolutely hate being ignored.
What frustrates me about people asking me to just drop everything, is the fact that when I ask, it feels like it's a big deal. And maybe it's because I can't do it all the time, but I feel that even when I want to make plans, or just even have a conversation with certain people in my life it's a big freaking deal. That hurts.
I get really frustrated with people and I quite often feel like I need to say something, but I'm so afraid of pushing people away that I have a hard time bringing up issues with people. I believe my pastor once called it 'acceptance addiction'. People are important to me, and I'm just so afraid of losing connections that I just accept things and leave it alone.
But what good is that really?
It isn't any good. And I know this. But as I've said before, putting myself out there really is hard for me. Especially when there's a risk of losing someone that, at least at one point in my life, was or is important to me. I guess I feel like God put me here for a purpose, and I believe that my purpose is to be here for people. Which I enjoy. I love nothing more than to talk to people, and to listen. The selfish part of me wants, in return, for people to be around for me. Especially those I thought actually cared about me.
So then, do I care about people too much? Am I being taken advantage of? Or am I not giving enough of myself to people? Maybe I'm giving too much of myself to people...
These are all questions that run through my mind quite frequently. And quite frankly, I'm not always sure how to answer them. This is usually where I let God take the lead. He knows FAR better than I do what I need and what I don't. I'm a fighter though, and I'm stubborn. So it's a hard thing for me to do. I'm starting to feel like it's time for me to start letting go, and letting God take the reigns. Wish me luck!
Today was a very frustrating day. One of those days when you wake up thinking everything is going to work out according to your plan and then NOTHING goes according to plan. In fact, it might as well have been opposite day. I'm not going to give you exact details of everything that happened today, as I don't feel it's necessary, and I would be bored just typing it. So I can't even imagine reading it.
I hate when you go into a store, and the employees treat you like you're retarded. That really makes me angry. What makes me even more angry is dealing with the same company about 3 times in 2 months, and 2 out of the 3 times being treated like a retard. BOY oh BOY does that piss me off. I usually don't complain to companies, I don't even honk my horn when somebody cuts me off in traffic. But being treated like I don't know anything multiple times makes me angry enough to say something. I'm in the process of writing a complaint letter to said company.
On to number 2 thing that made me upset today. I hate when people ask you to do things they aren't willing to do themselves. I have multiple cases of this in my life, so I won't bother to explain them all. I will explain the one I'm having issues with at this current moment though.
I feel like I'm constantly asked to just drop everything for other people. Whether it being to cover a shift at work, or hanging out with friends. The covering shifts one doesn't bother me. One day I'm going to be sick and I'm going to need a favor. So that's fine. But the hanging out with friends one quite frequently pisses me off. I feel like people get upset, or I'm letting certain people down when I can't just drop everything I'm doing and go to their house for a movie, or go out for coffee, or just meet them somewhere just so they can get out of the house. It's not like I never do that for people, but I just cannot do it all the time. I lead a very busy lifestyle, so it's not very often that I have room for 'spur of the moment' plans.
So instead, I'll make plans with people. Which to me, makes more sense. You can have a mental note, a reminder on your cell phone, whatever it may be, so that you can't make other plans, or at least make plans around our plans (does that make sense?). This way, you've made time for someone without any sort of distractions, and at least I can provide my full attention.
But for some reason, plans are difficult for some people.
If you have to bail on me with a reasonable explanation, or an explanation at least, that's fine. I understand. Things happen all the time. But DON'T just not bother to show up, or not bother to confirm plans or whatever. I absolutely hate being ignored.
What frustrates me about people asking me to just drop everything, is the fact that when I ask, it feels like it's a big deal. And maybe it's because I can't do it all the time, but I feel that even when I want to make plans, or just even have a conversation with certain people in my life it's a big freaking deal. That hurts.
I get really frustrated with people and I quite often feel like I need to say something, but I'm so afraid of pushing people away that I have a hard time bringing up issues with people. I believe my pastor once called it 'acceptance addiction'. People are important to me, and I'm just so afraid of losing connections that I just accept things and leave it alone.
But what good is that really?
It isn't any good. And I know this. But as I've said before, putting myself out there really is hard for me. Especially when there's a risk of losing someone that, at least at one point in my life, was or is important to me. I guess I feel like God put me here for a purpose, and I believe that my purpose is to be here for people. Which I enjoy. I love nothing more than to talk to people, and to listen. The selfish part of me wants, in return, for people to be around for me. Especially those I thought actually cared about me.
So then, do I care about people too much? Am I being taken advantage of? Or am I not giving enough of myself to people? Maybe I'm giving too much of myself to people...
These are all questions that run through my mind quite frequently. And quite frankly, I'm not always sure how to answer them. This is usually where I let God take the lead. He knows FAR better than I do what I need and what I don't. I'm a fighter though, and I'm stubborn. So it's a hard thing for me to do. I'm starting to feel like it's time for me to start letting go, and letting God take the reigns. Wish me luck!
Monday, September 6, 2010
Oy. What I don't get myself into...
Hello all,
Before I begin, I'll start with a small introduction of myself. More information will come in later blogs. Probably.
I'm 19 years old, I've lived in Kelowna my entire existence, and I'm starting my second year at Okanagan College in the Business program on Wednesday.
There you go. A few basics for you. Now you're like "so....you have a blog...why?" Truthfully, I'm not sure yet. But I do have SOME reasoning to this madness.
My first reason for creating this account was to follow a friend of mine who also just started blogging today. Her reason for creating her blog? She's going to Australia, thought it'd be fun to post her adventures on a blog. (Shoutout to you if you are going to read this, I wasn't trying to copy! Just thought it'd be fun to follow your adventures!)
So I'm just going to tell you right now, I currently have no plans to go somewhere exciting like Australia, England, or any other country overseas.
So why did I create a blog? Honestly, I thought it could be fun. I mean, at first, I was like, "What do I have to tell people?" But after consideration, I began to wonder, does it really matter? Really, anyone can sit in front of a camera, talk about anything, put it up on youtube and people WILL watch it. The likelihood of people getting much out of it besides pure entertainment is slim to none, but it will be watched, and probably commented on.
Even as I wandered through the biography section in Chapters the other day, it hit me that biographies really aren't just for celebrities, or people of high importance anymore. Anyone can write about their recent divorce, their life as a Mennonite, or their past relationships, and people will buy their books. Some may not even think twice about who the author is. All that matters, is the content.
It's a strange thought to me, to feel important enough to put your life on paper for everyone to read. It's such a vulnerable thing to do, yet it seems like anyone can do it, and it's ok! I feel like I'm constantly censoring what I tell people, out of fear that people don't actually care, and therefore, there's no point in mentioning certain things. Which is why I almost regretted making an account for a blog, but then after doing it thinking, "ok fine I'll blog, but I just won't advertise it". What's the point of that? I may not feel like someone of huge importance but maybe one day I'll actually say something/write something that someone will find valuable. Which means that I should stop censoring, and just say what's on my mind.
So. I'm not going to promise that I won't bore you. And I'm not going to promise that my blogs won't be very long. What I hope to achieve, and not just with the blog, is complete honesty, and being completely me.
Before I begin, I'll start with a small introduction of myself. More information will come in later blogs. Probably.
I'm 19 years old, I've lived in Kelowna my entire existence, and I'm starting my second year at Okanagan College in the Business program on Wednesday.
There you go. A few basics for you. Now you're like "so....you have a blog...why?" Truthfully, I'm not sure yet. But I do have SOME reasoning to this madness.
My first reason for creating this account was to follow a friend of mine who also just started blogging today. Her reason for creating her blog? She's going to Australia, thought it'd be fun to post her adventures on a blog. (Shoutout to you if you are going to read this, I wasn't trying to copy! Just thought it'd be fun to follow your adventures!)
So I'm just going to tell you right now, I currently have no plans to go somewhere exciting like Australia, England, or any other country overseas.
So why did I create a blog? Honestly, I thought it could be fun. I mean, at first, I was like, "What do I have to tell people?" But after consideration, I began to wonder, does it really matter? Really, anyone can sit in front of a camera, talk about anything, put it up on youtube and people WILL watch it. The likelihood of people getting much out of it besides pure entertainment is slim to none, but it will be watched, and probably commented on.
Even as I wandered through the biography section in Chapters the other day, it hit me that biographies really aren't just for celebrities, or people of high importance anymore. Anyone can write about their recent divorce, their life as a Mennonite, or their past relationships, and people will buy their books. Some may not even think twice about who the author is. All that matters, is the content.
It's a strange thought to me, to feel important enough to put your life on paper for everyone to read. It's such a vulnerable thing to do, yet it seems like anyone can do it, and it's ok! I feel like I'm constantly censoring what I tell people, out of fear that people don't actually care, and therefore, there's no point in mentioning certain things. Which is why I almost regretted making an account for a blog, but then after doing it thinking, "ok fine I'll blog, but I just won't advertise it". What's the point of that? I may not feel like someone of huge importance but maybe one day I'll actually say something/write something that someone will find valuable. Which means that I should stop censoring, and just say what's on my mind.
So. I'm not going to promise that I won't bore you. And I'm not going to promise that my blogs won't be very long. What I hope to achieve, and not just with the blog, is complete honesty, and being completely me.
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