Ranting

Why hello all!!

First of all...a shout out has to go to all the people from outside Canada who have seen/read my blog! It's absolutely incredible to me that I have the ability to touch people from outside my very small circle! It excites me like you wouldn't even believe. 

Again, I'm at a loss as to what to write about. I feel like I've used this blog to vent out all my negativity and there hasn't been many positive posts. Gee I'm boring hey?

What can I say? This is really the only place I rant. 

So here's a little song to enjoy while you read. It's one of my favorites when I'm in a bitter mood. It usually makes me feel better :)
 

Something has been sitting in my gut for over a week now. I'll be honest, I've been a bit hesitant about writing about it, because there's a lot of negative feelings going on right now towards a specific human being of the male gender.

That's right ladies. You can breathe easy. This one isn't about you.

It astounds me how dumb boys are. 

I know. Guys say the same thing about us. 

But seriously.  

And I seem to attract all the guys that have GREAT initial charm, then once you spend a little time with them, god forbid get attached , it's like the inner ass comes out for you to see. No more mister nice guy. 

I haven't got the patience anymore for that bullcrap. 

This is probably the 2nd time I've been really affected by the person of the opposite gender. I'll save the explanation of the first time for another post. 


Briefly though, the first one made me realize how important it is to stand up for what you believe in. I thought I really understood that after my experience with him. 


Boy was I wrong.

This time made me even more clear. In fact, I feel like stronger person because of it. 

The stupid thing is though, I'm still hurt by the second one. 


Even though he's given me all this strength to stand up for what I believe in, it's the judgment he put on me that hurt the most. Especially after I was nothing but supportive of him and his beliefs and aspirations. I didn't necessarily believe in all of them, but I still was there, I still listened, I never even pushed my faith and he still had the audacity to judge me.


OUCH. That smarts. Like pulling off a band aid really fast. But the pain still lingers. I'm probably way overreacting, but there's just something about the whole thing that seems unfair to me.

There is light at the end of this tunnel however.


I've never felt this strong in my faith. 


Having the experience that I had with him gave me the understanding that if he can feel so strongly about what he believes, why the heck can't I have strong beliefs. Not only that, why can't I feel free to express them?

It's unfair to me that people can be vocal about their beliefs about abortion, war, same sex marriages and other controversial issues, but people who believe in God or religion have to be careful about what they say because they can't force their religion on people. I'm not saying everyone is like this, but generally, it feels like "religious people" have to be the most careful.

I think that bothers me the most. Experiencing this firsthand, it seems very hypocritical to me. For example, he can be very vocal about whatever topic he wants, but if I were to say anything about religion, you can bet he'd have something to say about it and that it probably would be something I didn't want to hear. 

I do understand that it's not fair to force religion on people. That's not the way God want's "Christianity" to be. It's entirely a relationship which takes a lot of time and work. 

But do know that if you're going to push your beliefs on me, that I will definitely be very vocal about my own. Especially when you offend me. That takes a lot of work. I'm a pretty tolerant person, but when you offend me, you've really offended me. 

After going through what I went through, I feel like I now truly have the ability to  be strong in what I believe in, and let no one get in my way. 
 

But where's the line? When do we have to be careful when we talk about something like abortion? Is religion something that's considered "controversial"? Because I think controversial topics such as euthanasia or abortion go through cycles where one month all you hear about is same sex marriage this and marijuana use that, and then the next month we're on to something else. 


But "religion" gets lost in the cycle. It's the elephant in the room so to speak. 


I actually hate the word "religion". It really doesn't at all describe what it is to believe in a God who loves you despite circumstances that might lead you to believe otherwise.

It also makes Christianity seem like this "imaginary" thing. Like, "how is there a God if there's so much suffering" etc. Those are questions Christians themselves don't have the answer to. It doesn't mean that there is no God, it's just the way life is. If this world were perfect, heaven wouldn't exist.  Adam and Eve changed the way Earth is from the very beginning. Unfortunately, it was just downhill from there. 


It's about having faith that a God like The Bible describes can exist, and standing up for that, even though people will not believe the same thing.


So that's my mini-rant on God and religion for the moment. I'm very interested in your comments on this. Also, I'm very sorry this is so long! I just had to get it all out of my system :)